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January 31 for youI cry for you almost day and nightits been well over a monthsince you went into the lightmany seem to have forgotten that i was a mum to beand now another has slipped by that i shall never seei apologise to you for putting you through thisbut to become a mum is my only wishi will one day have children of my ownand to them you will always be knownand i shall never forget youbut now i have to let go and start my life a new.X~X~X~X~X~X~X~XOctober 20 Blackpool 5th -12th october 2007
September 17 update
Well guys its official back to Blackpool i go.
Im going with my mum on the 5th October. for a fair few days, total of 10days off work (thats including weekends).
Hopefully not much has changed and that its still as fun as ever.
were going during term time so hopefuly it wont be to packed, and thankfully no brother, sadly i still have my nan and grandad coming too,as its their wedding anniversary but i shouldnt see them too often.
For thouse of you still wondering who ive not managed to catch up with, me and Anton never have got back to gether, and in all honesty i think it is for the best he is now settling down and enjoying his life.
Im now with someone his name is Michael, and today is actually his 22nd birthday,
 weve been together a while and time just seems to be flying by. there was a time that i was really confussed on what i wanted out of life and in some aspects i still am. ive decided to just take each day as it comes and hope for the best.
One of my great friends Lucy has finally found her man and i couldnt be happier for her, although ive not met him so ive not had the chance to make sure he's good enough for her, but im sure she will judge him enough when need be. I wish them both all the best.
Various things that have gone on over the last few months that have caused me to lose 1 or 2 friends and as much as i thought they were my friend it has really opened my eyes to see that you really can not trust any one. I know i was as much of the cause for a few things that was said and done, but it takes two to tango and thats all i have to say on that subject.
Im still working in the same place a few things have changed eg a few ob roles and a fair few members of staff have sadly left, and i feel like the only ancient person left.
Any way i think thats enough rambling for now.
talk soon guys
X~X~X
May 04 god where do i starthello,
well how are we all.
i cant remember the last time i blogged but i do know alot has changed.
i think the biggest thing is im no longer with Anton, he dumped me almost 2 months ago (tym flys) and waited 3 days before he got with someone new.... however i think she was on his scene from tym before... but n e way hes history but still an asshole....
i now have a rottweiler she is 3 years old and her name is Snoop.. ive had her nearly 3 weeks shes adorable just dont get to close he he he.
im still workin at the same place, so not much has changed there.
i have my mum moving in with me soon, so looks like my peace is shattered lol.
im lost for words allready and am really lookign forward to my bank holiday weekend off work.....
hope you are all still out there and thouse of you that do still comment im sorry for not always getting back to you x~x~x
December 13 long time no blogvery long time since my last blog, almost 4 months to be exact.
ive had a few ups and downs since my last blog.
i am still with Anton, and i still can not imagine my life with out him.
work has been ok and ive not had a holiday since August, so i am gladly looking forward to the christmas holidays.
any way i am already running out oof things to say. so ill just leave you some pics for the holidays.
 
___________________Hello __________________I Have _________________Come Here ________________To Wish You _______________Merry Christmas ______________And Also, A Happy _____________New Year To You For ____________2007... I Hope The New ___________Year Brings You Loads Of __________Happiness And Good Health. _________I Hope You Have A Nice Day On ________Christmas Day, Filled With Lots Of _______Family Time.....And Of Course Eating ______Lots Of Nice Foods, And Candy’s. I Hope _____That Santa Is Good To You As Well And He
___Brings You Loads Of Presents On Christmas Day _________________.*(¨`•.•´¨)`•.¸
______________.`•.¸.(¨`•.•´¨) `•.¸. ________. ×`•.¸.•´×. (¨`•.•´¨)`•.¸`•.¸ _________________. .(¨`•.•´¨). .×`•.¸. _________________,××`•.¸.•´×× .`•.¸ August 15 blackpool 7-14th aug 2006well it came to that time again for another holiday to non other than Blackpool. Sadly we only got a week as Anton had to get back for work.
we didnt even leave the house and we had probs as my mum had booked the wrong return date and we would have to change them for a day earlier as Antons work refused to give him the Monday off, there was no trainf available for the sunday so we went and paid £50 for 2 adults back to london by coach, this did not sound good to me as its 6hrs on a good day, but it had to be dont much to my annoyance. Moving on ... we arrived in blackpool around 3pm. we tried to fill the days up but it was the height of the season and everthing was just so packed. but we did manage to fit thje pleasure beech in alot of the rides have been changed in a few ways eg, faster and alot more painful lol i'll attach sum pics of the pleasure beech these are not mine but just sum ive found on the net
                            it was during this time that I didnt even wanna think about goin home. n i assumed we were goin on sun but Anton called work to get his rota and he was told he hads mon off so.... apart form the pleasre beech all we did was wonder round and win teddies on the camel darby, n i got addicted to 2 games 1 called elvis and another called kash kong.
any way i hope to add more pics soon when anton sends me his July 07 new quizStar Sign? - pices What is your name? - emma Single or taken? - taken What does your name mean?- aint got a clue Who picked out your name? – my parents What's your nickname? - cabbage, duckie, loula bell What colour are your eyes? - hazel, i think What size are your shoes? - 5 1/2 How tall (or short) are you? - 5 ft nuthin lol Do you wear contacts? -nope Favourite Drink? – volvic strawberry Favourite alcoholic drink? – vodka rite Month? – feb Favourite Food? – pasta Thing you are not very good at! – dancing Clothing Brand? – n e thing sporty the Year? – Christmas Favourite colour? - blue! Favourite Animal? - dogs re your best friends? - to many Are your parents together? - no Anything special about your parents? -They are mine an theres nufin they can do bout it! lol Siblings? - 1 bro 1 step sis n 1 step bro
Yes Or No
Do you fancy anyone? - no n you keep secrets? - Ye Do you like Britney Spears? – no ve you ever fancied a cousin? - no ve You been in the opposite sexes bathroom? - yh lol ever hurt anyone? - yh ve You been hurt? - Yh Do You swear? - Ye Do You get your way? – yh lol willing to try new things? - yh always Have You cheated on a test? - not dat i no off
Right Now
What are you wearing? - tacks n vest top How are you feeling? – like shit What are you eating? - nuthin How many people are online? -25 How's the weather? – cloudy What books are you reading? – point horror the boyfriend
Bits About You & Love
What aftershave do you use? – I'm a gurl!!!!! but i love cool water! What's in your wallet? – keys, money, bank card, ID Tall or short? - neither lol i'm average Blonde or brunette? - brunette! Long hair or short hair? - long wat do you find annoying in a boy? - cant think What's the first thing you notice about boys? - eyes! 100 %
Other Questions
What was the last movie you saw? – top gun What movie do you really want to see? - lake house! Where is your favourite place you want to go? – blackpool! What did you last dream about? - my baby lol What was the last thing you ate? – pizza lol! If you were a crayon what colour what would you be? – blue Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? – mum One song that will getdancefloor without a doubt? - none Ever had a crush on a teacher? – yh but im not saying who Are you too shy to ask someone out? - no lol Scary movies or happy ending? - either!endings! Summer or winter? - summer Relationships or one night stands? - Relationships def! Who was the last person... Slept in your bed? me Saw you cry? the mirror Made you cry? Anton :( Told you they loved you? Anton You shared a drink with? Anton You went to the movies with? Anton You went to the shops with? on my own Yelled at you? dad Sent you an e-mail? Lucy Sent you a text message? Anton Have you ever... Said "I love you" and meant it? yh Given someone a bath? yh Broken a bone? yh Gotten in a fight with your pet? no Broken the law? yh lol Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? yh lol Gone skinny dipping? urrmmmm no Made yourself throw up? yh Danced naked? lol no Dreamt something crazy and then it happened the next day? yh Wish you were the opposite sex?...No! Had an imaginary friend? Not tha I can member Do you have a crush on someone? yh Worst feeling in the world? when you have ur heart broken by sum1 u luv Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? nah i got my bloke What's under your bed? nuthin, no room Favorite sport to watch? none Piercings/tatoos? yh Stuff... Do you do drugs?..no What country would you most like to visit? NYC Who are your closest friends? Lucy, dont no wht id do with out her, shes always there What are you most scared of? deep water!!!!! What clothes do you sleep in? none Been in love? yh, still am Do you drive?...No Do you have a job?...yh Do you like being around people? yh What kind of shampoo do you use? loreal elvive, the pink cashmire touch 1 Extra Stuff... Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with? yh, but i had a surprise Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did? Ye Want someone you don't have right now? yh Which do you prefer, gold or silver? gold! Are you lonely right now? yh :( Which do you prefer on boys, long or short hair? Short! Have you ever been called a tease? yh Have you ever been drunk? tipsy :) Do you prefer Pepsi or Coke? neither Do you prefer McDonalds or Burger King? mcdonalds Do you swear? yh Do you believe in yourself? Ssumtimes Do you think you are attractive? Nope but its nice wen boyz say u r! Are you a health freak? no! Do you like thunderstorms? yh! Song that's stuck in your head a lot? unfaithful, maneater Which is better, pizza or chocolate? pizza Do you want to get married? Ye Do you want kids? yh one day Favorite... Room in house? kitchen Eye Colour? not bothered Hair colour? dark Types of music? all types Bands?.. to many In the last 72 hours, have you... Cried?..yh Bought something? ye Sang? Lol yh Wanted to tell someone you loved them? Wanted n did Met someone new? yh Missed someone? Ye Hugged someone? ye Kissed someone? yh What are you listening to right now? rhianna unfaitful June 13 Grrrrhello well had a REALLY GREAT weekend was just here there and every where so i dont really have a lot to moan about but eres wht i do have to moan about
lucy has finally managed to get a new space up and running after MSN deleted it due to bad content, but already shes had a nasty comment on it but weve both had a dig at that person n e 1 else feel free to do the same
Foodles is still closed and the head has also cancled 2 of our events that happen every year.
erm i think im finished Grrrring now lol , spk soon! June 08 GrrrrrWhats made me go Grrr this week, firstly sorry im late for doing this second i tried yesterday to do this blog and it wouldnt let ppl view it so i changed previous blogs and they are now viewable but sadly i had to delte the previous blogs ..... so for this week
firstly my neighbour has decided to repair the fence unfortuanatly my garden is not clear so i gotta finish work everyday and finishr clearing it so she can get her fence put up, takes the piss
  Foodles resturant is still closed so.... im kinda bored of doin the same thing everday.... we should be up and running next year (hopefully) but weather ill still be here by then is another thing
my comuter has been playing up for a while and is switching its self off every now and again, and last night it did it for the last time as now it will not come back on .. ive asked some one to have a look at it for me and hopefully it shall b fixed tonight, if it dont then no more msn for a while
 n e way i cant think of n e more so until later .... bye bye for now June 01 lucys visit to london2
1st night ....well she arrived at around 11:20 friday 26/5/06 me and my mum had problems getting to her as we were late then we ended up at the wrong place. We left victora coach station and went back to my house for something to eat watched a film or to then went to wood green wondered around for a bit went back to mine .. i cooked dinner (bacon and cheese pasta bake with garlic bread and the apple crumble and CUSTARD for dessert)(dont get jelouse) watched antoher film then bed
27/5/06:- woke up at 9am met my mum n bro at wood green went from there to edmonton to get something to eat walked that of then went swimming, shopped around for a bit came home. I then cooked dinner again .. mexican bbq chicken rice and garlic and herb popadoms... (my lil mix). watched a film n then bed ...
28/5/06:- woke up at 9am once again .. dad came round made sure we were up .. went to wicks.. got some hippo sacks and finally started the garden ..took us best part of the day .. and it still not finished.. but we found the pole. we both got sun burnt.  29/5/06:- we had a lie in but i was still awake at 9am but i just lied in bed .. was ment to continue the garden but we had thunder storms all day .. so i decided to take her and the bf shoppin .. we got soaked ...done both ends and sides of the high road. cam home .. n got invited to the pub .. erm .. well where do i start...we ended up havibng a few there.. then went bk to a freinds for a fun game of monopoly with alot a brandy 2 bottles to b exact. if n e 1 landed on chance, community chest, free parking, jail, and when u pass go .. u had to take a shot.. i enced up 1st out as i lost my properties ,dont remember ow many shots i had .. lucy had all in all bout 3 buds , 1 stella n bout 8/9 shots lol n den walked home with me at 4am...
30/5/06:- well slept till about midday .... had pizza from the night b4 and a cup a tea woke up n attempted to start the garden but got distracted by Antons arrival after he passed out at his step dads .. he arrived with a box of chocs as appologie for leaving us walking home alone ... he never stayed long as hes finally sorting his driving lessons out .. but were meeting up 2morro for our trip to london .. so for now till 2moro adios .. gotta get on with the garden .. sadly
1/6/06:- today me, Anton and Lucy went to camden . where i think Lucy was in her element as i noticed she actually bought some things lol, i think it was a skirt and some fluffy boots lol, today we never got n e pics as it was just shops and stuff, we never even stayed in camden for food. Tomorrow Lucy goes home sadly wont be till the evening , but i can honestly say im gonna miss her. Although she hardly says any thing when she does she always makes me laugh, I hope she will return in the summer at some point . n e way ill prob b back 2moro for another update ... speak again soon. May 22 grrrrrrwell im still waiting for my number to be transfered over spent a total of 75 mins on the phone to them over the wekend and it still aibnt been done calls charged at 20p per minute .. (dreading my bill now) gotta call em bk today between 1 and 2 pm so watch this space more will come
a good friends pc has broke so it feels like a life tym as passed since we last spoke. but she is officially visiting on friday .. coach arrives at victoria @ 11am .... yay cant wait lol ... gonna b draggin her all around london lol
council have put my rent up so not happy about that ....
was rainging all weekend so i never got a chance to start on the garden at all .. fingers crossed this weekend ....
thats about it for this week ....hope u all had better weeks than i did... speak again soon, bye for now. May 18 Rebecca Booth's Poemsthese are one of my students poems i think their brilliant
second to her
I'll wear your sin
as a fasion statement making it right for people to hate me I'll pull this off
as the latest trend while you claim to be my only friend saying you love me
only in the dark out in the open you only break my heart stealing glances
when shes not around taking chances trying not to make a sound its hard to hide
when I love you so much so for every tear, I make a cut empty promises
chased with empty lies broken hearts hidden with broken smiles it will be allright
or so thyey will say but what if alright is to far away what if our happieness
will never be told what if I never have you to hold burn all the pages
that were never written go back in time before I was love-stricken I dont want this
it makes my heart sore the gun whispers to me "not anymore" lovers suicide
She knew it when she met him
from that very first time they were ment to be together there wasnt a doubt in her mind from the first words that he spoke
she could hear it in his voice she knew he felt the same way it was a given not by choice immediatly they were together
the couple that everyone knew there was an instant connection and their and friends and family could feel it too people said it would'nt work
because they came from different places but their love was everlasting you could see it in their faces their parents saw it differently
forbidding it to start but their feelings were so strong they couldnt keep them apart their parents went through everything
thinking it could'nt last judging by accidents with relationships in the past it was like they had known forever
this relationship was right to him she was his princess and to her he was her knight and then they were finally sepperated
both of the hearts were torn it felt like taking the petals of a rose and being pricked by a thorn they found a way to be together
seceretly meeting late at night making love untill the sun rose holding each other tight finally they came to realise
this was no way to live seceretly loving your soul mate was more effort than they could give one night they went together bringing along a knife kissing eachother good bye and taking each others life the plunging of the knife
stood for sacrifices they were making and the pouring of their blood was for the measures they were taking they held each other tightly
as they watched eachother die but they knew that this was better than living a lie hours later they were found
no one knowing just why they died but stories are going round of a lovers suicide. tell me what you think May 15 Grrrrrrrrrwell this week has not been as bad as the last................
resturant has been closed yet again so we dont no whts goin on with dat a few students want to leave to continue the course else where .... still on work subject .. my contract expires in aug n i dont no if its being re newed if not i loose my house but i wont no that for a while yet ...
got a week off soon but gotta sort my back garden out shall have (hopefully) a few people helpin but i gotta use a holiday for gardening
 next subjest i could go on forever on but to cut a long story short .... bassed on previous blog i got talking to him ages ago n e was kl i was there for him but he decided to fuck me n a few other people off for a 14 yr old .... he as hes reasons so he recons but personally i couldnt give a Shit n e more hers a waste of space n i dont no y i botghered with him hes a user n a abuser....take take take
piczo .. my hit counter stopped working for a few days so i added a new 1 from a different site... now dats up n running the old 1 as decided to work again .. typical
so for another week .. see u all again soon
May 08 general Grrrrrhey ppl well its monday morning
 im stuck at work for wht now seems to b no aparrent reason as we have been closed down ......for thouse of you know i help run a resurant at a school and the head has closed us down as certain people are not happy with the way things are being done... so god knows whts happening on that one .been told by 02 my new phone
 should be with me by the 11th witch means ive waitied almost 2 weeks for it ...but hope fully it shall be here soon yay my boyfriend now works in windsor
 ... so he couldnt stay last night as it would have taken him 3 hrs to get to work ... so if n e one knows of n e jobs goin in animal care/ workin with animals at around 30 miles from the N17 area then please let me know ... had to travel to 4 different shops on saturday morning (9am
 ) to buy a new washing machine (ive had 2 break down on me in a week) as either the 1 i wanted was not in stock or i had to wait up to a week for delivery when i wanted one then ...finally got 1 now it installed n workin fine  ... (fingers crossed)intended to go swimming on saturday
... called up 4 different places they all closed at around 3pm (this was around 5) had to travel a fair distance to get to 1 in the rain to get to 1 that was still open ...had abount an hour in the poolso people all in all i had a pretty busy weekend ....
April 24 i love you
I Rote Ur Name In da Sky,
But Da Wind Blew It Away,
I Rote Ur Name In Da Sand,
But Da Waves Washed It Away,
I Rote Ur Name In My Heart.
And Foreva It Will Stay x
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April 20 marriage parts ...Marriage - Part I
Typical macho man married typical good-looking lady and after the wedding, he laid down the following rules: "I'll be home when I want, if I want and at what time I want and I don't expect any hassle from you. I expect a great dinner to be on table unless I tell you that I won't be home for dinner. I'll go hunting, fishing, boozing and card playing when I want with my old buddies and don't you give me a hard time about it. Those are my rules. Any comments?" His new bride said, "No, that's fine with me. Just understand that there will be sex here at seven o'clock every night .......... whether you're here or not." (DAMM SHE'S GOOD!) ************************************ Marriage (Part II) Husband and wife had a bitter quarrel on the day of their 40th wedding anniversary! The husband yells, "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that reads:
"Here Lies My Wife - Cold As Ever " "Yeah?" she replies. "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that reads: "Here Lies My Husband Stiff At Last" (HE ASKED FOR IT!) ****************************** Marriage (Part III) Husband (a doctor) and his wife are having a fight at the breakfast table. Husband gets up in a rage and says, "And you are no g ood in bed either," and storms out of the house. After sometime, he realizes he was nasty and decides to make amends and rings her up. She comes to the phone after many rings, and the irritated husband says, "what took you so long to answer the phone?" She says, "I was in bed." "In bed this early, doing what?" "Getting a second opinion!" (YEP, HE HAD THAT ONE COMING, TOO!) ****************************************** Marriage (Part IV) A man has six children and is very proud of his achievement. He is so proud of himself, that he starts calling his wife, "Mother of Six" in spite of her objections. One night, they go to a party. The man decides that it's time to go home and wants to find out if his wife is ready to>leave as well. He shouts at the top of his voice, "Shall we go home 'Mother of Six?'>His wife,>irritated by her husband's lack of discretion, shouts right back, "Anytime you're ready, Father of Four." (RIGHT ON, LADY!) ************************************** Marriage (Part V) The Silent Treatment A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 AM." He left it where he knew she would find it. The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, "It is 5:00 AM. Wake up." Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests. God may have created man before woman, but there is Always a rough draft before the masterpiece. |
Blackpool 5th -12th October 2007 
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