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January 31

for you

I cry for you almost day and night

its been well over a month

since you went into the light

many seem to have forgotten that i was a mum to be

and now another has slipped by that i shall never see

i apologise to you for putting you through this

but to become a mum is my only wish

i will one day have children of my own

and to them you will always be known

and i shall never forget you

but now i have to let go and start my life a new.

X~X~X~X~X~X~X~X

 

October 20

Blackpool 5th -12th october 2007


 

Open-mouthed Blackpool 5th -12th October 2007 Open-mouthed

 Day 1 - Friday 5th October 2007

Dad gave me a lift up to Nan's @ about 9:45am. Taxi arrived @ 9:50 surprisingly 10 minutes early. Taxi took us to Euston Station got there @ 11:20. Sat around until the train pulled in @ 11:45, me and mum were panicking as when it pulled in me and mum were in the toilet and therefore didn't know where Nan and granddad were. mum made the decision though to make our way to the train, we were queuing up to get on the platform and i noticed to my surprise that they were actually ahead of us. we had serious problems finding our seats as the coaches had been marked wrong, our suit cases ended up traveling in coach B and we were seated in coach C. in all we were delayed by 20 minutes due to signal failure. We arrived in Preston @ 2:30 and our train that was taking us to Blackpool South was due to arrive @ 3:15. me and mum inquired about times and trains for the following Friday for our return, but the time we got to the correct platform we didn't have log to wait before the train pulled in. We were on our way to Blackpool South when was passed through a station called Squires gate, mum said that it looks familiar, but she never piped up until the train pulled away for the next stop that it was actually Pontins that we had just passed. we spoke to the driver and he said when he gets to Blackpool South he turns round and comes back the same route anyway so another panic was over. we got off at squires gate and made our way up the stairs to come off the platform, it was here i broke my suit case handle, it literally came off in my hand. i dragged it from there to the Pontins holiday center believe it or not it was a half mile walk! We arrived at Pontins and checked in and found out we were right over in the corner of the park, only bonus was that we were directly right by the pool. We settled in out rooms and Barry and Darren came up to greet us, showed us the way too dinner. I had goujons of cod along with chips and a jam sponge with ice cream for dessert. We then made our way back over to the room as mum wanted to use the so called bath, she managed to get in and out before Barry and Darren arrived to invite us out for a drink, we did and i don't remember much about that night lol (is that a good thing or what)

 

Saturday 6th October 2007


woken up @ 6am by the jumbo jet that flies across the park every morning. Mum woke up @ 7:20am went over for breakfast bout 8:15am came back over to the room about an hour later, woke Nan and granddad up got properly washed and dressed went over to the refresh cafe that Barry and Darren work in left there at about 11am. Caught a bus from outside the park, drove straight down the promenade on that and got off at the tower. We walked around for a bit to see what has been changed and noticed that a few of our favourites had closed or were due to close. Some new ones were also resurected. We then went to Coral Island for a few games on the machines. We then came out on to the promenade and crossed over took our shoes and socks off and took a long walk bare foot in the sand back up to pontins. It was a great walk but by the time we finally go back we were nakered and went over for dinner and decided to to go back and spend the night in our room after we bought some drink we stayed up and played a few games of cards.


Sunday 7th October 2007


We decided to stay on sight from last night as we had heard that it was the final of the morris dancing @ 2pm. Although we did stay on sight we never actually got to see any of it all apart from a few practices, its weird its all arms loll. We went to the pool for a quick swim, pool was lovely, was fairly empty too, jacuzzi was lovely and helped ease my back after my first couple of nights on those terrible beds. In the evening we went over to the queen vic for a few drinks and to watch karaoke, yes i did go up.. thats all im saying. Came home for an early night.


Monday 8th October 2007


Today was intake day for Pontins, now its the beginning for the 'Gold' (over 50's) what a week to choose to come. We decided to go down to town, and went in a few of the arcades and done a bit of shopping. Came home in time for tea and headed over to the princes theatre, played a few games of bingo (didnt win anything) then watched a group called pacific heights. They played all the classics that i personally had never heard of, with very few that i did. An illusionist then came on witch basically was the type of thing where he's tied up and he has to escape, that type of thing, was quite good. Had a few more drinks watched the oldies dance and then headed back to bed.


Tuesday 9th October 2007


Missed breakfast, stayed in bed for a lie in slept till 11am!!! (latest all week) got in for lunch instead, had a cheese omlette and some salad. Whilst in the restaurant eating we received a text from Barry asking us to pop over to reception as there was a problem with our payment :s we popped over there and it turned out that they don't even accept my card loll so we asked Darren how long it would take to walk to the nearest ATM he said that it would be St Anne's and shouldn't take no more than 10-15 min walk, yeah right!!! turned out we were walking for 45 minutes drew out the £210 that we still had to pay for the room etc, and then walked back to Pontins. We met Barry and Darren back in the Princes theater where they were serving tea and biscuits etc for the tea dance. Darren just laughed at me and mum as soon as he saw us, so i chased him round the hall a few times we then went of to dinner and then went out down to town to take a look at the illuminations. It was here that we had a light shower, thankfully we were in the car, then again it didn't last long at all. Came home and fell asleep.


Wednesday 10th October 2007


Went for breakfast met Barry and Darren @ 10:30am and took a walk down to non other than the pleasure beach ! Rides opened @ 12pm, we stayed there till 7:30pm (missed dinner) and then went to see a show called hot ice. This was brilliant and now i just wish that i bought the DVD. In total me and mum went on the new infusion ride 7 times! Mum done big one twice ! I didn't go on it, i have done it before, but however i wasn't keen on it as there is nothing to strap you in and there is a really tight bend that i am not so sure about. Done all of the main rides along with my 2 favorites bling (went on that 3 times) and avalanche (went on that twice) the only we never got round to going on was iron brew revolution due to no one couldn't b bothered to climb the stairs and i didn't wanna go alone and Valhalla is a water ride and none of them wanted to get wet. We walked back to Barry and Darren's had a sandwich and tea, then back to ours for bed.


Thursday 11th October 2007


woke up and missed breakfast on purpose as we intended to go down and do some shopping and grab a bite to eat on the promenade. We picked up a few presents including a few for myself (i know i went on the holiday but i thought why not he he he) we went back to our room in Pontins and started to pack the bits we no longer needed, watched some TV. Picked up tokens that was collected from machines in arcade on site. Went over for dinner, had scampi and chips with salad and then a slice of strawberry gateau. We then went back over to the princess theater watched Nan and granddad play bingo the 'golden lot' do some line dancing and then Davinchi (copy of Il divo) do some songs including Regresa A Mi (un break my heart) we also got to see the blue coat cabaret, unfortunately it was also old songs taken from so called classic movies, they were still good but i think i would have enjoyed it a lot more if it was done for a more younger age group. We then went over to see Barry and Darren as they were working at the fish shop on site, i ended up getting free pie and chips loll ate that then fell asleep.


Conclusion

weather was great first few days had 1 or 2 showers of rain (mainly in the evening) but all in all it was really rather nice. Male blue coats were cute as hell, but then most gay guys are. The show i see on Thursday called hot ice blew me away and i really would love to see it again (I've found a video on you tube) I managed to get a photo each for me and mum of us both with one of the dancers, i then got in autographed by two of the others. In response about our rooms they were small but adequate, bath tub was a joke, windows was black with dirt on the inside as well as out, and i made a friend with a mouse from our room loll. The only thing im annoyed about is that we never got round to getting up the tower or on to the piers for the rides, apart from that a great break and i would love to go back.









 

September 17

update

 

 
 
Well guys its official back to Blackpool i go.
Im going with my mum on the 5th October. for a fair few days, total of 10days off work (thats including weekends).
Hopefully not much has changed and that its still as fun as ever.
were going during term time so hopefuly it wont be to packed, and thankfully no brother, sadly i still have my nan and grandad coming too,as its their wedding anniversary but i shouldnt see them too often.
 
For thouse of you still wondering who ive not managed to catch up with, me and Anton never have got back to gether, and in all honesty i think it is for the best he is now settling down and enjoying his life.
 
Im now with someone his name is Michael, and today is actually his 22nd birthday,
 
weve been together a while and time just seems to be flying by. there was a time that i was really confussed on what i wanted out of life and in some aspects i still am. ive decided to just take each day as it comes and hope for the best.
 
One of my great friends Lucy has finally found her man and i couldnt be happier for her, although ive not met him so ive not had the chance to make sure he's good enough for her, but im sure she will judge him enough when need be. I wish them both all the best.
 
Various things that have gone on over the last few months that have caused me to lose 1 or 2 friends and as much as i thought they were my friend it has really opened my eyes to see that you really can not trust any one. I know i was as much of the cause for a few things that was said and done, but it takes two to tango and thats all i have to say on that subject.
 
Im still working in the same place a few things have changed eg a few ob roles and a fair few members of staff have sadly left, and i feel like the only ancient person left.
 
Any way i think thats enough rambling for now.
 
talk soon guys
 
X~X~X
 
 
 
 
May 04

god where do i start

hello,
well how are we all.
i cant remember the last time i blogged but i do know alot has changed.
i think the biggest thing is im no longer with Anton, he dumped me almost 2 months ago (tym flys) and waited 3 days before he got with someone new.... however i think she was on his scene from tym before... but n e way hes history but still an asshole....
 
i now have a rottweiler she is 3 years old and her name is Snoop.. ive had her nearly 3 weeks shes adorable just dont get to close he he he.
 
im still workin at the same place, so not much has changed there.
 
i have my mum moving in with me soon, so looks like my peace is shattered lol.
 
im lost for words allready and am really lookign forward to my bank holiday weekend off work.....
 
hope you are all still out there and thouse of you that do still comment im sorry for not always getting back to you x~x~x
 
 
December 13

long time no blog

very long time since my last blog, almost 4 months to be exact.
ive had a few ups and downs since my last blog.
i am still with Anton, and i still can not imagine my life with out him.
work has been ok and ive not had a holiday since August, so i am gladly looking forward to the christmas holidays.
any way i am already running out oof things to say. so ill just leave you some pics for the holidays.
 
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___________Year Brings You Loads Of
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_________I Hope You Have A Nice Day On
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August 15

blackpool 7-14th aug 2006

well it came to that time again for another holiday to non other than Blackpool. Sadly we only got a week as Anton had to get back for work.
we didnt even leave the house and we had probs as my mum had booked the wrong return date and we would have to change them for a day earlier as Antons work refused to give him the Monday off, there was no trainf available for the sunday so we went and paid £50 for 2 adults back to london by coach, this did not sound good to me as its 6hrs on a good day, but it had to be dont much to my annoyance. Moving on ... we arrived in blackpool around 3pm. we tried to fill the days up but it was the height of the season and everthing was just so packed. but we did manage to fit thje pleasure beech in alot of the rides have been changed in a few ways eg, faster and alot more painful lol i'll attach sum pics of the pleasure beech these are not mine but just sum ive found on the net            

           

           

           

           

           

           

 
it was during this time that I didnt even wanna think about goin home. n i assumed we were goin on sun but Anton called work to get his rota and he was told he hads mon off so.... apart form the pleasre beech all we did was wonder round and win teddies on the camel darby, n i got addicted to 2 games 1 called elvis and another called kash kong.
any way i hope to add more pics soon when anton sends me his
July 22

me to you bears

           

           

           

           

           

           

     
July 07

new quiz

Star Sign? - pices

What is your name? - emma

Single or taken? - taken

What does your name mean?- aint got a clue

Who picked out your name? – my parents

What's your nickname? - cabbage, duckie, loula bell

What colour are your eyes? - hazel, i think

What size are your shoes? - 5 1/2

How tall (or short) are you? - 5 ft nuthin lol

Do you wear contacts? -nope

Favourite Drink? – volvic strawberry

Favourite alcoholic drink? – vodka

rite Month? – feb

Favourite Food? – pasta

Thing you are not very good at! – dancing

Clothing Brand? – n e thing sporty

 the Year? – Christmas

Favourite colour? - blue!

Favourite Animal? - dogs

re your best friends? - to many

Are your parents together? - no

Anything special about your parents? -They are mine an theres nufin they can do bout it! lol

Siblings? - 1 bro 1 step sis n 1 step bro

 

Yes Or No

 

Do you fancy anyone? - no

n you keep secrets? - Ye

Do you like Britney Spears? – no

ve you ever fancied a cousin? - no

ve You been in the opposite sexes bathroom? - yh lol

ever hurt anyone? - yh

ve You been hurt? - Yh

Do You swear? - Ye

Do You get your way? – yh lol 

 willing to try new things? - yh always

Have You cheated on a test? - not dat i no off

 

Right Now

 

What are you wearing? - tacks n vest top

How are you feeling? – like shit

What are you eating? - nuthin

How many people are online? -25

How's the weather? – cloudy

What books are you reading? – point horror the boyfriend

 

Bits About You & Love

 

What aftershave do you use? – I'm a gurl!!!!! but i love cool water!

What's in your wallet? – keys, money,  bank card, ID

Tall or short?  - neither lol i'm average

Blonde or brunette? -  brunette!

Long hair or short hair? - long

wat do you find annoying in a boy? - cant think 

What's the first thing you notice about boys? - eyes! 100 %

 

Other Questions

 

What was the last movie you saw? – top gun

What movie do you really want to see? - lake house!

Where is your favourite place you want to go? – blackpool!

What did you last dream about? - my baby lol

What was the last thing you ate? – pizza lol!

If you were a crayon what colour what would you be? – blue

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? – mum

One song that will getdancefloor without a doubt?  - none

 Ever had a crush on a teacher? – yh but im not saying who

Are you too shy to ask someone out? - no lol

Scary movies or happy ending? - either!endings! 

Summer or winter? - summer

Relationships or one night stands? - Relationships def!

 

Who was the last person...

Slept in your bed? me

Saw you cry? the mirror

Made you cry? Anton :(

Told you they loved you? Anton

You shared a drink with? Anton

You went to the movies with? Anton

You went to the shops with? on my own

Yelled at you? dad

Sent you an e-mail? Lucy

Sent you a text message? Anton

Have you ever...

Said "I love you" and meant it? yh

Given someone a bath? yh

Broken a bone? yh

Gotten in a fight with your pet? no

Broken the law? yh lol

Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? yh lol

Gone skinny dipping? urrmmmm no

Made yourself throw up? yh

Danced naked? lol no

Dreamt something crazy and then it happened the next day? yh

Wish you were the opposite sex?...No!

Had an imaginary friend? Not tha I can member

Do you have a crush on someone? yh

Worst feeling in the world? when you have ur heart broken by sum1 u luv

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? nah i got my bloke

What's under your bed? nuthin, no room

Favorite sport to watch? none

Piercings/tatoos? yh

Stuff...

Do you do drugs?..no

What country would you most like to visit? NYC

Who are your closest friends? Lucy, dont no wht id do with out her, shes always there

What are you most scared of? deep water!!!!!

What clothes do you sleep in? none

Been in love? yh, still am

Do you drive?...No

Do you have a job?...yh

Do you like being around people? yh

What kind of shampoo do you use? loreal elvive, the pink cashmire touch 1

Extra Stuff...

Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with? yh, but i had a surprise

Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did? Ye

Want someone you don't have right now? yh

Which do you prefer, gold or silver? gold!

Are you lonely right now? yh :(

Which do you prefer on boys, long or short hair? Short!

Have you ever been called a tease? yh

Have you ever been drunk? tipsy :)

Do you prefer Pepsi or Coke? neither

Do you prefer McDonalds or Burger King? mcdonalds

Do you swear? yh

Do you believe in yourself? Ssumtimes

Do you think you are attractive? Nope but its nice wen boyz say u r!

Are you a health freak? no!

Do you like thunderstorms? yh!

Song that's stuck in your head a lot? unfaithful, maneater

Which is better, pizza or chocolate? pizza

Do you want to get married? Ye

Do you want kids? yh one day

Favorite...

Room in house? kitchen

Eye Colour? not bothered

Hair colour?  dark

Types of music? all types

Bands?.. to many

In the last 72 hours, have you...

Cried?..yh

Bought something? ye

Sang? Lol yh

Wanted to tell someone you loved them? Wanted n did

Met someone new? yh

Missed someone? Ye

Hugged someone? ye

Kissed someone? yh

What are you listening to right now? rhianna unfaitful

June 13

Grrrr

hello well had a REALLY GREAT weekend was just here there and every where so i dont really have a lot to moan about but eres wht i do have to moan about
 

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My neighbours fence should b done today, and i managed to get my side finished in time for me to go to Antons over the weekend, if it aint been done then its because they are not happy with my side.  

 

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had a few nasty comments on my piczo site sum1 using another friends name, so i was annoyed about that but i been informed im not the only 1  

 

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lucy has finally managed to get a new space up and running after MSN deleted it due to bad content, but already shes had a nasty comment on it but weve both had a dig at that person n e 1 else feel free to do the same

 

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  Foodles is still closed and the head has also cancled 2 of our events that happen every year.  

 

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erm i think im finished Grrrring now lol , spk soon!

 

June 08

Grrrrr

Whats made me go Grrr this week, firstly sorry im late for doing this second i tried yesterday to do this blog and it wouldnt let ppl view it so i changed previous blogs and they are now viewable but sadly i had to delte the previous blogs ..... so for this week
 

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 firstly my neighbour has decided to repair the fence unfortuanatly my garden is not clear so i gotta finish work everyday and finishr clearing it so she can get her fence put up, takes the piss
 
 
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Foodles resturant is still closed so.... im kinda bored of doin the same thing everday.... we should be up and running next year (hopefully) but weather ill still be here by then is another thing
 
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 my comuter has been playing up for a while and is switching its self off every now and again, and last night it did it for the last time as now it will not come back on .. ive asked some one to have a look at it for me and hopefully it shall b fixed tonight, if it dont then no more msn for a while
 
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 n e way i cant think of n e more so until later .... bye bye for now   
June 01

lucys visit to london2

 

1st night ....well she arrived at around 11:20 friday 26/5/06  me and my mum had problems getting to her as we were late then we ended up at the wrong place. We left victora coach station and went back to my house for something to eat watched a film or to then went to wood green wondered around for a bit went back to mine .. i cooked dinner (bacon and cheese pasta bake with garlic bread and the apple crumble and CUSTARD for dessert)(dont get jelouse) watched antoher film then bed

 

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27/5/06:- woke up at 9am met my mum n bro at wood green went from there to edmonton to get something to eat walked that of then went swimming, shopped around for a bit came home. I then cooked dinner again .. mexican bbq chicken rice and garlic and herb popadoms... (my lil mix). watched a film n then bed ...  

 

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28/5/06:-  woke up at 9am once again .. dad came round made sure we were up .. went to wicks.. got some hippo sacks and finally started the garden ..took us best part of the day .. and it still not finished.. but we found the pole. we both got sun burnt. 

  
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29/5/06:- we had a lie in but i was still awake at 9am but i just lied in bed .. was ment to continue the garden but we had thunder storms all day .. so i decided to take her and the bf shoppin .. we got soaked ...done both ends and sides of the high road. cam home .. n got invited to the pub .. erm .. well where do i start...we ended up havibng a few there.. then went bk to a freinds for a fun game of monopoly with alot a brandy  2 bottles to b exact. if n e 1 landed on chance, community chest, free parking, jail, and when u pass go .. u had to take a shot.. i enced up 1st out as i lost my properties ,dont remember ow many shots i had .. lucy had all in all bout 3 buds , 1 stella n bout 8/9 shots lol n den walked home with me at 4am...
 
 
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30/5/06:- well slept till about midday .... had pizza from the night b4 and a cup a tea woke up n attempted to start the garden but got distracted by Antons arrival after he passed out at his step dads .. he arrived with a box of chocs as appologie for leaving us walking home alone ... he never stayed long as hes finally sorting his driving lessons out .. but were meeting up 2morro for our trip to london .. so for now till 2moro adios .. gotta get on with the garden .. sadly    
 

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31/5/06:- woke up at 8:45am woke lucy, we got dressed and went to meet Anton at the local tube station at 10:45am met matthew aswell and we made our way to covent gardens and then tottenham court road as matt wantesd to go to some music shop. We then went to trockaderio  i in total got 1920! tickets exchanged them for sum annoyin bear that sings u are my sunshine i ripped the wire out as it wouldnt shut up i origanaly assumed it was a winnie the pooh bear. guess ill learn from that misteak in future, never got n e pics of there as i was to busy playing games while her we had a game of bowling and after all the many hours in there we went to london bridge and then we then went to see the tower of london  while we were enjoying the views me and matt decided to get an ice cream each we then intended to go to go back home to wood green for aroma a chinese an all you can eat resturant, but sadly the high road was closed down as a shop assistant was stabbed!! so we changed plans and went from wood green to enfield and went TGI friday's had a 3 course meal each for £15, lucy had yet another bud( i thought she would have learned but oh well) we left there about 11 and then believe it or not went to krispy kreme's a doughnut place and got 2 dozen doughnuts.. no we did not eat n e that night. any we came back here and went straight asleep. 

 

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1/6/06:- today me, Anton and Lucy went to camden . where i think Lucy was in her element as i noticed she actually bought some things lol, i think it was a skirt and some fluffy boots lol, today we never got n e pics as it was just shops and stuff, we never even stayed in camden for food. Tomorrow Lucy goes home sadly wont be till the evening , but i can honestly say im gonna miss her. Although she hardly says any thing when she does she always makes me laugh, I hope she will return in the summer at some point . n e way ill prob b back 2moro for another update ... speak again soon.   Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting   2/5/06:- Well Lucy went home today, her coach left at around 7:15pm (delayed as usual) before she went we just stayed at home and she packed her bags, not really much to say on today. like i said in the previous blog im missing  her already lol. Any way i think that that is enough onm this subject bye bye for now.  

 

      

       

May 22

grrrrrr

well im still waiting for my number to be transfered over spent a total of 75 mins on the phone to them over the wekend and it still aibnt been done calls charged at 20p per minute .. (dreading my bill now) gotta call em bk today between 1 and 2 pm so watch this space more will come
 

 
a good friends pc has broke so it feels like a life tym as passed since we last spoke. but she is officially visiting on friday .. coach arrives at victoria @ 11am .... yay cant wait lol ... gonna b draggin her all around london lol
 

 
council have put my rent up so not happy about that ....
 

 
was rainging all weekend so i never got a chance to start on the garden at all .. fingers crossed this weekend ....
 

 
thats about it for this week ....hope u all had better weeks than i did... speak again soon, bye for now.
May 18

Rebecca Booth's Poems

 
 
these are one of my students poems i think their brilliant
 
 
 
 
 
second to her
 
I'll wear your sin
as a fasion statement
making it right for people to hate me
I'll pull this off
as the latest trend
while you claim
to be my only friend
saying you love me
only in the dark
out in the open
you only break my heart
stealing glances
when shes not around
taking chances
trying not to make a sound
its hard to hide
when I love you so much
so for every tear, I make a cut
empty promises
chased with empty lies
broken hearts
hidden with broken smiles
it will be allright
or so thyey will say
but what if alright
is to far away
what if our happieness
will never be told
what if I never have you to hold
burn all the pages
that were never written
go back in time
before I was love-stricken
I dont want this
it makes my heart sore
the gun whispers to me
"not anymore"
 
 
 
 
 
lovers suicide
 
She knew it when she met him
from that very first time
they were ment to be together
there wasnt a doubt in her mind
from the first words that he spoke
she could hear it in his voice
she knew he felt the same way
it was a given not by choice
immediatly they were together
the couple that everyone knew
there was an instant connection
and their and friends and family could feel it too
people said it would'nt work
because they came from different
places but their love was everlasting
you could see it in their faces
their parents saw it differently
forbidding it to start
but their feelings were so strong
they couldnt keep them apart
their parents went through everything
thinking it could'nt last
judging by accidents
with relationships in the past
it was like they had known forever
this relationship was right
to him she was his princess
and to her he was her knight
and then they were finally sepperated
both of the hearts were torn
it felt like taking the petals of a rose
and being pricked by a thorn
they found a way to be together
seceretly meeting late at night
making love untill the sun rose
holding each other tight
finally they came to realise
this was no way to live
seceretly loving your soul mate
was more effort than they could give
one night they went together
bringing along a knife
kissing eachother good bye
and taking each others life
the plunging of the knife
stood for sacrifices they were making
and the pouring of their blood
was for the measures they were taking
they held each other tightly
as they watched eachother die
but they knew that this was better
than living a lie
hours later they were found
no one knowing just why they died
but stories are going round
of a lovers suicide.
 

 
tell me what you think
May 15

Grrrrrrrrr

well this week has not been as bad as the last................
 
resturant has been closed yet again so we dont no whts goin on with dat a few students want to leave to continue the course else where .... still on work subject .. my contract expires in aug n i dont no if its being re newed if not i loose my house but i wont no that for a while yet ...

got a week off soon but gotta sort my back garden out shall have (hopefully) a few people helpin but i gotta use a holiday for gardening

next subjest i could go on forever on but to cut a long story short .... bassed on previous blog i got talking to him ages ago n e was kl i was there for him but he decided to fuck me n a few other people off for a 14 yr old .... he as hes reasons so he recons but personally i couldnt give a Shit n e more hers a waste of space n i dont no y i botghered with him hes a user n a abuser....take take take
 

 
piczo .. my hit counter stopped working for a few days so i added a new 1 from a different site... now dats up n running the old 1 as decided to work again .. typical
 
 
 
 
so for another week .. see u all again soon
 
 
 
May 08

general Grrrrr

hey ppl well its monday morning  im stuck at work for wht now seems to b no aparrent reason as we have been closed down ......for thouse of you know i help run a resurant at a school and the head has closed us down as certain people are not happy with the way things are being done... so god knows whts happening on that one.

been told by 02 my new phone should be with me by the 11th witch means ive waitied almost 2 weeks for it ...but hope fully it shall be here soon yay

my boyfriend now works in windsor... so he couldnt stay last night as it would have taken him 3 hrs to get to work ... so if n e one knows of n e jobs goin in animal care/ workin with animals at around 30 miles from the N17 area then please let me know ...

 
had to travel to 4 different shops on saturday morning (9am) to buy a new washing machine (ive had 2 break down on me in a week) as either the 1 i wanted was not in stock or i had to wait up to a week for delivery when i wanted one then ...finally got 1 now it installed n workin fine ... (fingers crossed)
 

 
intended to go swimming on saturday ... called up 4 different places they all closed at around 3pm (this was around 5) had to travel a fair distance to get to 1 in the rain to get to 1 that was still open ...had abount an hour in the pool
 

 
so people all in all i had a pretty busy weekend ....
 
 
 
 
April 24

i love you

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I Rote Ur Name In da Sky,
But Da Wind Blew It Away,
I Rote Ur Name In Da Sand,
But Da Waves Washed It Away,
I Rote Ur Name In My Heart.
And Foreva It Will Stay x
 
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x I lOvE yOu x
i LoVe yOu WeN u R hApPy..
..I lOvE yOu WeN u R SaD..
..i lOvE yOu WeN u R lAuGhInG..
..i LovE u WeN u R mAd..
..I lOvE yOu WeN u R pLaYfUl..
..I lOvE yOu WeN u R bLuE..
..bT tHe ReAsOn Y i LoVe YoU..
..is BeCaUsE u R u..
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
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x..You are my angel,
that fly's so high.
You are the sun,
that lightens the sky...
 
You are my life,
the one i hold.
You are my warmth,
 when i'm cold.
 
You are my shelter,
 from the rain
You are my hero,
 who takes away the pain.
 
You are the one,
 i love so much
  You are the one,
i love to touch. 
 
You are the one who,
will always care.
You are the one,
who will always be there. 
 
You are the light,
that brightens my day,
You are the path,
that shows me the way.
 
You will never leave my heart
 no matter what you do,
Your the one, the only one,
and im always gonna love you..x
 
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  WaIt FoR tHe BoY wHo WiLl DrOp EvErYtHiNg FoR yOo At AnY tImE oF ThE dAy JuSt To SeE yOu. 
 
  WaIt FoR tHe BoY tHaT wIlL mAkE aN oRdInArY mOmEnT sEeM mAgIcAl. 
 
 WaIt FoR tHe BoY tHaT yOo CaN't HeLp BuT sMiLe WhEn YoO sEe, AnD wHeN hE sMiLeS, yOo KnOw He NeEdS yOo. 
 
  WaIt FoR tHe BoY wHo WiLl Be YoUr BeSt FrIeNd..... ThE oNe WhO wAnTs To ShOw YoO oFf To ThE wOrLd EvEn In YoUr SwEaTs WiTh No MaKe Up... 
 
 BuT mOsT oF aLl WaIt FoR tHe BoY wHo WiLl PuT yOo In ThE cEnTrE oF tHe UnIvErSe,BeCaUsE hE iS oBvIoUsLy tHe CeNtRe Of YoUrS!x! 
 
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If u Love sum1, tell them 
If u need them 2 b with u, tell them 
If u can't bare 2 b without them, tell them 
If u would kill yourself so they could live, tell them 
Tell them how you feel, its the only way 2 b with them!x!
 
нттρ://ѕρα¢єѕ.мѕи.¢σм/χχ-f¢υк-∂ιѕ-кυя∂-χχ 
 
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I think of you each morning

and [dream] of you each night

i think of your arms around me

holding me so [tight]

__theres always 
going  to be that [one] person,
that no matter what they do or what they say
or how many times they [HURT] you
___you just cant let them go because they
just [MEANso much to you
 
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This Is Real Love
 i11797556_59427.gifMissing Someone When They're Away

Wanting To Be With Them Everydayi11797556_59427.gif

i11797556_59427.gifTexting Them Jus To Say 'Hi'

Counting The Minutes Until He Repliesi11797556_59427.gif

i11797556_59427.gifNever Shutting Up About Him To Your Friends

Hoping That You Stay And Be Togetha Until The Endi11797556_59427.gif

i11797556_59427.gifThinking About Him All The Time

Wishing And Wishing That He Was Minei11797556_59427.gif

i11797556_59427.gifWanting And Wanting Them So So Much

Being Happy With Just One Touchi11797556_59427.gif

i11797556_59427.gifThen Longing For More And More

Does This Feeling Have A Cure?i11797556_59427.gif

i11797556_59427.gifWhat I Wanna Say Is Simple But True..

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It takes only a minute to get crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone. But it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

 

 

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N o  m a t t e r  w h a t  i  s a y

N o  ma t t e r  w h a t  i  d o

N o  m a t t e r  w h a t  h a p p e n s

I m  a l w a y s  t h i n k i n g

 Of  y o u

 
 

see i know you've been `

hurt before but i swear ;;

i'll give you

so much more

   
Everything You Do,
Just Makes Me Fall More For You.♥
 

I am a little bit more in love with you.........

each morning when i wake up

I am a little bit more in love with you.........

every time you call my name

I am a little bit more in love with you.........

When you come and hold my hand !

I am a little bit more in love with you.........

Every moment, Every day !

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ραу αттєитισи ιи ¢ℓαѕѕ «x
 ¢υz υя 2 вυѕу ωяιтιиg «o
x» υя fιяѕт иαмє ωιтн нιѕ ℓαѕт «x
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I love you

I love you in the morning,
I love you at night
I love you when you're wrong
as much as when you’re right.
I love you when you’re up,
I love you when you’re down.
I love you when you smile
and I feel bad when you frown.
I love all the ways
you show me that you care.
I love the safe warm feeling,
knowing that you’re there.
I love you no matter
what you say or do.
And that’s why
all you ever hear out of me,
is that I love you

 
 
iloveyou            iloveyou
iloveyouilov        iloveyouilov
iloveyouilovey      iloveyouilovey
iloveyouiloveyou  iloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyoui.Forever.iloveyouilov
iloveyou. iloveu .iloveyou
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April 20

marriage parts ...

Marriage - Part I

Typical macho man married typical good-looking lady
and after the wedding, he laid down the following rules:

"I'll be home when I want, if I want and at what
time I want and I don't expect any hassle from you. I expect a great
dinner to be on table unless I tell you that I won't be home for
dinner. I'll go hunting, fishing, boozing and card playing when I
want with my old buddies and don't you give me a hard time about it.
Those are my rules.
Any comments?"

His new bride said, "No, that's fine with me. Just
understand that there will be sex here at seven o'clock every
night
.......... whether you're here or not."
 


(DAMM SHE'S GOOD!)

************************************

Marriage (Part II)

Husband and wife had a bitter quarrel on the day of
their
40th wedding anniversary!

The husband yells, "When you die, I'm getting you a
headstone that reads:

"Here Lies My Wife - Cold As Ever "

"Yeah?" she replies. "When you die, I'm getting you
a headstone that reads:
"Here Lies My Husband Stiff At Last"

(
HE ASKED FOR
IT!)

******************************
Marriage (Part III)

Husband (a doctor) and his wife are having a fight
at the breakfast table.
Husband gets up in a rage and says, "And you are no
g ood in bed either," and storms out of the house.

After sometime, he realizes he was nasty and decides
to make amends and rings her up. She comes to the phone after many
rings, and the irritated husband says, "what took you so long to
answer the phone?"

She says, "I was in bed."

"In bed this early, doing
what?"

"Getting a
second opinion!"

(YEP, HE HAD THAT ONE COMING, TOO!)

******************************************

Marriage (Part IV)
A man has six children and is very proud of his
achievement.
He is so proud of himself, that he starts calling his wife,
"Mother of Six" in spite of her objections.

One night, they go to a party. The man decides that
it's time to go home and wants to find out if his wife is ready to>leave as well. He shouts at the top of his voice, "Shall we go home
'Mother of Six?'>His wife,>irritated by her husband's lack of
discretion, shouts right
back, "Anytime you're ready, Father of Four."


(RIGHT ON, LADY!)

**************************************

Marriage (Part V) The Silent Treatment
A man and his wife were having some problems at home
and were giving each other the silent
treatment. Suddenly,
the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake
 him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to
be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of
paper, "Please wake me at
5:00 AM." He left it where he knew she
would find it.
The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover
it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about
to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece
of paper by the bed. The paper said, "It is 5:00 AM. Wake up."

Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests.

God may have created man before woman, but there is
 Always a rough draft before the masterpiece.
March 11

it true!!

 

 

Every night before someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
At least fifteen people in this world love you.
The only reason anyone would hate you is because they wanna be jus like you.
There are at least two people in this world that would die for you.
You mean the world to someone.
Someone you dont even know exists loves you.
When you make the biggest mistake ever something good comes of it.
When you think the world has turned its back on you take a closer look.
Always remember the compliments you recieve forget the rude remarks.
 
 
 
 
March 09

stuff

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I love you today,
as I have from the start,
And I will love you forever,
With all of my heart.
 
 
 
 
 
 

If I Was [Beautiful], Maybe You'd Look At [Me].

 

If I Was [Intelligent], Maybe You'd Listen To [Me].

 

If I Was [Popular], Maybe You'd See [Me]

 

If I Was [Funny], Maybe You'd Laugh With [Me].

 

If I Was [Sweet], Maybe You'd Talk To [Me].

 

If I Was [Anything] But Me... Maybe You'd Love [Me]. 
 
 

 

 

 

.♥.

 W e   W e r e   G i v e n   T w o   H a n d s   T o  H o l d

T w o    L e g s  T o    W a l k

 T w o  E y e s  T o  S e e

T w o   E a r s   T o  L i s t e n

B u t   W h y   O n l y   O n e  H e a r t ?

B e c a u s e   T h e   O t h e r   O n e  

W a s  G i v e n   T o  S o m e o n e  F o r   U s   T o   F i n d

.♥.
 
 

 

 

 

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